Memoirs of a Quarantinee
My Covid ordeal started on March 6 when news of the suspension
of classes in Metro Manila due to reported cases of Covid came out and another
news of a lockdown in Italy because of thousands of Covid fatalities. My
daughter is studying in Manila and she is in Quezon City where there are many
confirmed Covid cases. She’s alone in her place and relatives are far from
where she stays. I texted and called her a lot, always checking on her. My
sister is also in Italy and she is immuno-compromised because of a heart
ailment and diabetes. Daily, I would check on her, too, knowing that Italy is
suffering much from the pandemic. These two alone made me scatter-brained.
March 10, I got word from a friend of a possible lockdown in
Metro Manila and that would mean a difficulty in mobility. Despite the numerous texts and calls I made to
my daughter urging her to go home, she hesitated because they were having
online classes and she has to submit some outputs online.
March 12, my sanity seemed to be blown out because a lockdown
was finally declared in Metro Manila. I immediately sought help from family members to secure a plane ticket for Dorothy.
It was already late in the evening when a ticket with a very exorbitant price
was bought for March 14. The hours seemed so long between March 12 and 14. I
hardly slept thinking of consequences in between the days. I prayed a lot, but
panic attacks started to set in. My fear and apprehension momentarily subsided
when I saw my daughter at the airport in the early morning of March 14. I really
wanted to hug her but she cautioned me not to and told me that she will go on
self-quarantine as soon as she arrives home.
Despite the two-hour sleep I had, I still went to
church for my Saturday morning mass assignment as lector. A fellow lector
noticed that I was losing my voice which alerted me. Actually, prior to this, I
was not feeling well already. I had pneumonia in the last week of January and
before I could be back in the pink of health, my father died in February 3, and
I had no choice but be on my feet to travel to Aklan and attend to his wake and
burial. For ten days, I had to travel back and forth to settle things. I must
admit, I had episodes of slight fever and body malaise but I didn't mind it
much.
March 14, my daughter and I started our self-imposed quarantine.
On condition that I was not feeling well, the barrage of messages from friends
regarding Covid was quite too much for me to handle. Though I didn't have
fever, I had back pains and had a stuffy nose. Terrible things crossed my mind.
There was this fear that I might have been infected with Covid or I might have
pneumonia which if not treated I might experience sepsis which already happened
in 2017. I was on panic mode. The feeling was surreal! I didn't tell anybody
about how I felt because I do not like to contaminate them with fear and
worries that are already looming. Unnecessary fears should be avoided to ease
the trauma that everybody is facing at the moment. That night, I already informed my co-lector
that I cannot serve in my Sunday Mass schedule because I was not feeling well.
In the morning of March 15, I packed my things and medicine and
without telling my daughter, I drove alone to a private hospital for a chest
x-ray. My plan was that I would not go
back home anymore, if in case, and will submit myself to hospital care, if
needed. Anyway, if left at home, with enough provisions, my daughter can manage
alone. I contacted my niece who is a doctor to give me a request for X-ray
because I was suspecting that I have pneumonia again. Unluckily, this niece-doctor of mine was also
on quarantine because she has just arrived from Singapore. However, via messenger, she sent me the
request which I presented to get a chest X-ray.
It took quite sometime before I was attended to because I had three
temperature checks and interview before my request was granted. I did not complain because I understood the
situation. Knowing that I was not in a
condition to be admitted, I went back home.
March 16, I requested my niece who is a nun to get my x-ray
result. True to my suspicion, I had a
relapse. The result showed pneumonia in my left lung and so I sent my result to
my niece-doctor, and just the same, I was given my prescriptions via internet
and was told to stay home.
The sdP Sisters purchased my medicine and brought additional
provisions so I won’t leave the house to do marketing. I told my daughter to
get her own food so that we won’t physically see or come near each other. She stayed in the upper room while I stayed
in my room at the ground floor. The days
that followed were grueling. My back
pain worsened, phlegm started to come out and on two occasions, I nosebled. My
backpain was excruciating because I also had an attack of spondylosis. How I
wished, someone would massage my back to ease the pain. I just placed strips of Salonpas and rubbed
Vicks Vaporub on my aching body. I was on
the verged of crying, but, I held on. It
was not time for self-pity.
I remained vigilant. I frequently checked on my oxygen
saturation, my blood pressure, and fever. My lips started to crack, so I drank
Gatorade because I know I am getting dehydrated. I also did deep breathing exercises and
gargled using warm water with salt, alternating it with Betadine. I had to be
quick at giving remedy to myself.
I am physically sick and my mind is getting paranoid. I even had a dream where I was caught by the military
because according to them I am suspected of keeping the Covid virus in my pocket. Of course, it was absurd, and I just laughed
at this.
I was relieved that everytime I checked, my vital signs were
normal. I also constantly checked on my
daughter’s condition either through messages, phone call or distant
conversations. I also kept in constant communication with my family members in
Aklan and Iloilo and Suor Jean in Italy. Being the eldest in the family, and with no
more parents to look after us, I had to check on everybody. Coupled with all
these, I prayed a lot. Sometimes, even
when I go to the comfort room, I would, by instinct make the sign of the cross.
I also held on to my talisman, my brown scapular and my rosary, whenever,
negativity besets me. I do not know how
many times I prayed in a day.
In the days that I was sick, I never hinted friends and family
members what I was going through. I continued doing my work through the web. My
quarantine did not prevent me from doing something within the limits of my
resources and the constraints of my health condition. However, on two occasions
where I was asked if I could serve in the online mass and another when a niece
from Iloilo asked for help, I had to reveal that I am actually sick of
pneumonia and it would be impossible for me to go out of the house.
Good that the Sister Servants were there to send me supply of
medicine and provisions. They just bring
them to me at the gate of our house.
March 21, a day before I could finish my medication for
pneumonia, a stroke of misfortune occurred. A grass fire took place in the vacant lot next
to our house. An angel came to the
rescue. A male neighbor came over and before the firetruck came, the fire was
already extinguished. However, in my
haste, I sprained my big toe which made me limping for several days. I am glad that when this happened, no damage
to property was made. In that situation, I was calm and even managed to pacify
a panicky neighbor.
March 26, as a precautionary measure, the subdivision gate
passing through Barangay Tanque was closed.
This limited the entry to the place where we live.
March 28, was a D-Day for me and my daughter. We finished our self-imposed quarantine.
The news of a Covid fatality coming from Dayao caused an
Enhanced Community and Home Quarantine in the Barangay in March 30. This drew
much concern and panic to the city. I personally was drawn to it, because the
victim was an elementary grades classmate of mine.
In April 4, I was caught in a situation which I only see in
movies. I requested for medicine and fruits, but because of the enhanced
quarantine, vehicles of non-residents
were not allowed, so, I had to get my provisions from the gate of the
subdivision.
In the morning of April 5, I received my Quarantine pass. Good enough because in the afternoon of this
day, an Extreme Enhanced Community and Home Quarantine were imposed due to
another Covid positive case in the barangay.
We were now on a total lockdown.
Because of escalated palpitation, through messenger, I contacted
my cardiologist. With my apparatus at home, my doctor asked me to take my blood
pressure, my oxygen saturation and my pulse rate. She ordered to increase the
dosage of one of my medicines, and so my daughter and I have to go out to buy
medicine. Again, another scenario which
I see in movies occurred. A checkpoint
was set up where barangay officials and uniformed military men were checking
for quarantine pass, and getting temperature check, plus a round of announcement
that the following day, entry and exit of vehicles to the barangay where we
live will already be limited. It took
us about twenty minutes to pass through the checkpoint in going back to the
house.
On April 8, while we were having lunch, my
daughter received a text message checking on her health condition. She was
informed that she wasin the same plane with a Covid positive passenger during
her flight back to Roxas City on March 14. According to the texter, that
passenger is doing well as well as the other passengers who were with that
person. My daughter was further advised to stay home. We shrugged at the
information because her quarantine period is already over. Actually, one of the
passengers was also Dorothy's elementary grades classmate and her mother also
called me that her daughter's condition was also checked.
We are now almost a month under quarantine, and Thanks God,
we’re both fine, but we won’t let our guards down that is why we still comply
with home quarantine, maintain social distancing and use separate utensils and
bathrooms even to this day.
These past days, I noticed that I get more sleep, I don’t get
edgy and I feel relaxed and I got back to my Knovela binging mode.
Reflecting on the message of Pope Francis for Easter Sunday, I
firmly agree that HOPE and COURAGE are the weapons we need to survive the Covid
pandemic. Hope is, indeed, not magic, it
is a grace from God. It is a result of
our faith that God will salvage us from the horrors of the pandemic. It is also this Hope that gives us the
Courage to fight the battle and rise victorious. Because if we stay lame and cowardly in this
pandemic, we will surely succumb to defeat.
I am a solo parent, my relatives are far from me, I have to be strong. As
I have been telling myself all the time, we are now facing a CHALLENGE - a TEST
of FAITH and PERSONALITY – and that we need to be strong in both to overcome
the challenge. With this in mind, I have gathered the strength to brave the
storm because I am confident that my FAITH IS GREATER THAN MY FEAR.
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